I used to see that white bunny bragging around on T-shirts, journals, jewelry; you name it. It would just get under my skin.
"Man are there people really that selfish?! Sheesh."
Little did I know. Little....did I know.
You may not think of yourself as a selfish person. Same here! I never thought I was an "It's all about me" person until God knocked me head over heals and I woke up with dirt in my eyes, nose and mouth.
Have you ever heard of a mirror?
It took awhile for God to make me look at myself. Not selfishly but, critically.
I love giving to people. If I had all the money in the world I would be using it to make elaborate Christmas and birthday presents or for just because or; to even give the chance for people to go to Disney World!! How can a girl like that be selfish? Well, don't be too surprised.
When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it.
Genesis 3:6
Can you guess what that was about? If you said Eve took a bite from the forbidden fruit, ding! You got it. When sin came into the world it infected all of us.
We want to do good things and we mean well but, it can only go so far. I have to admit this but I really don't want to. Sometimes when God told me to or when I felt that someone needed a little help or encouragement, I would reach out to them but secretly, so deep down in my heart it would barely be a whisper, I would think, maybe they'll give me something back. Only God's love can give freely expecting nothing in return. How can we have a mindset like that?
When your words came, I ate them; they where my joy and my hearts delight, for I bear your name O Lord God Almighty.
Jeremiah 15:16
That was my problem. My hearts desire was mostly for things. I did care about the people and God but; It was hard for me to think of and put God and others before me all the time.
When I looked in the mirror, I wanted to see "me" as the main character of the story! I wanted to be the hero, the one who saved the day, the special one with the gift that no one had ever seen!
Stand back please
Jesus calls us to be like Him. A servant.
"Jesus I want to be like you but... a servant. Can I; well... how can I say this? Serve you in another way?"
There is no way we can be exempt from serving others when following Jesus. That's why we need to stand back and watch and listen to Jesus.
He says we need to love our neighbor as ourselves (including our family. Oy!). How do we even do that? Well, like that verse from Jeremiah we need to be like, what I say, human sponges and soak up every thing that God's word says to us. And we truly need to seek after His heart.
By the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you.
Romans 12:3
Doesn't a slap like that sting? Guess what? I just read that verse this morning! Isn't God awesome?! Okay, we should not think of ourselves so highly (no more hero day dreams for me) or so lowly (no more pity parties for me). Let's look at the word sober for a moment shall we?
Sober- clearheaded not drunk
We can become drunk on ourselves! We don't need any help with that. If we had all the time and money in the world I'm sure most of you women, including me would use that time to see how we can make our hair look better, our skin more clear, our body more toned, etc. It says that God has given us a measure of faith to be able to soberly judge ourselves.
Woman. We live in a world that says...
"me first!"
"help me!"
"look at me!"
"I want/need that!"
And the list goes on and on. It is very hard to break away from our selfish flesh and turn to our renewed spirit. We need to turn away from ourselves and submit our whole thinking process to Christ. It was so hard at first. But then strangely it became easier to think and talk to God more each day and even enjoy it!! God promises to always be there for us; even when we unwillingly do our own thing at first.
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 1:9