Idol pains

         
                 " You shall not make a idols for yourselves or erect an image or pillar, and you shall not set up a figured stone in your land to bow down to it, for I am the Lord your God.
                                                                                                                         Leviticus 26:1 

                       The past couple weeks I have been struggling with idolatry. Boy, I didn't realize that pretty much anything can become an idol!! 

                       I really don't want to tell you ladies this but...here goes.  When I set my mind on something I go crazy. Whether it be cleaning (especially when I see things have been dirty or messy for long enough. My parents and sisters; when they see me like this tell me to remember to ask them about throwing things away. I've mistakenly thrown items that were not ready for the trash yet. Oops.),  making cards for friends, working on one of my painting or drawing projects and so on. I can get some serious tunnel vision. Now, God has shown me that I can get serious tunnel vision on other things as well. 

                       My family and I are waiting for our house in South Carolina to sell. When that happens, we can be able to buy a house here and move out of this house we've been renting. I got so excited about having a house of our own again. I've gotten to the point of complaining and grumbling and being ungrateful. (I really don't like telling you all this!) I began to day dream about this new house. Then one day God reminded me that yes, he has that house for us but, he kindly told me to calm down and look at the bigger picture. 

                    1. I live in a house that is keeping me dry and warm.
                    2. I'm not homeless like how me and my family were for the first two weeks of moving here.
                     3. I have my family surrounding me and they make this house a home.
                     4. God has always been there and is here now through my waiting.
                     5. There is a bigger picture as to why we're waiting.
                     6. Look at what God is doing now!!  

                  It's been a hard couple months waiting but, I keep reminding myself that it will be worth it and that God is teaching me something. I don't want to miss that!!

                    Who knew that idol worship could happen so easily? I need to keep God as my main focus. He needs to be my focal point and my anchor. My head gets caught in the clouds way too easily. I'm glad God is so patient with me and you.